I never thought that your trouble would come so soon but yes that could’ve been me, and now I’m struck with sorrow because your life is doomed although it could’ve been me. The choices that we make we’ll get what we choose because yes that could’ve been me, but my heart did fail me when I heard the news because I’m thinking that it could’ve been me. Tears are falling because it is hard to say that yes it could’ve been me, but the Lord was gracious when he sent me away because yes it could’ve been me. But I’m alive and able to say this today that yes it could’ve been me, buried six feet under where my body would stay because yes it could’ve me. What a horrible tragic and a big surprise because yes it could’ve been me, and my eyes could be closed and not see the sun rise because yes that could’ve been me. But the Lord showed mercy when he heard my cries because yes that could’ve me, and in hell I could’ve been lifting my eyes because yes it could’ve been me.
Who is the man that I’m sitting here writing about late at night with poetic lyrics, the man who is standing all by himself and the man with the quiet spirit? The man that I see who is passing by me leaves a question mark on my face, because he really does have me curious, but keeping my thoughts in a secret place. He will never know that I am watching, and he will never know what I can see, he will never know what I am hoping, because it just may not ever be. Though my mind may be constantly roaming, like the waves that are in the sea, he might not be the man that’s for me, but a withered and a fruitless tree. I may never know what will happen, because this life can leave a bitter taste, but the only thing that is really best for me is keep my thoughts in a secret place.
If only you had spoken in your final hour before your vision had begin to grow dim, and if you only could’ve told me what the feeling was like when you transitioned in the spiritual realm. Where are you dwelling, are you feeling alone, or are you bowing at the Master’s feet, are you singing with the angels with a harp in your hand or are you resting in eternal peace? Show me where you are and just lead the way to where your body has been properly laid, because I want to know if everything is well with you or are you begging to come out of your grave? If only you could seek me or just give me a glimpse because your soul is very hard to reach, and because you’re not with us in the physical realm I just wish that the dead could speak.
If I go to work quiet and appear in a daze then just know that I am being myself, and when it’s close to mother nature and I’m set in my ways then keep calm because I’m being myself. If I really don’t like you and I keep you away then just know that I am being myself, but if you try to come around me I’ll have something to say because I’m bold and I’m just being myself. I don’t care what others think because I know all my strengths and my flaws I know them all too well, but I will soar like an eagle through the struggles of life because through Christ I know that I’ll prevail. I can only be the person I was born to be because I’ll never be anyone else, but if you text and don’t ever get a response from me then only know that I’m just being myself.
I never thought I’d be the one to speak this way about you, not being bitter but a little bit rough, because I’m long overdue by keeping it all inside and now I’m venting and I’ve had enough. It was you who were calling reaching out to me and never once did I reach out to you first, but you only came around me when your life was dry, looking for me to try to quench your thirst. But to me you’re like a dead man cold and stiff who is awaiting to be put in a hearse, and if anybody call or ever mention your name then to me they are pronouncing a curse. Now I’m feeling really good since I broke all the ties though I shouldn’t even scoop to your level, but it’s time that I expose all your schemes right now because it’s nothing but the works of the devil. If you think you’re so much better or too good for me and think it’s hard for me to say goodbye, just remember it was you reaching out to me so if you’re thinking that then so am I.
The way you touch my body it just make me so weak but most of all I am happy you’re here, and the way you cuddle with me while we’re lying in bed, makes me feel really good my dear. The way that you embrace me when you walk through the door, have my spirit feeling light as a feather, and the way you warm my body as my temperature rises, burn me up when we are together. The way you look at me when you utter your words give me chills when I hear your voice, and the way i kiss your lips and caress your tongue very gentle though it’s nice and moist. Stop running because you’ll never have nothing to fear but let me show you all that I can do, and I will teach you things that no other woman could do if you would just let me prove it to you.
I need to know if we are close, are we getting together or do you only want to be my friend? You’re disappearing like a ghost and it’s wasting my time because I feel like I am chasing the wind. My time is being spent dreaming that I have you and you’re my only source of inspiration, but now I see your fruit is falling from the top of the tree, forbidden fruit that is my temptation. I need to know where we stand or do I need to give up because I don’t know the truth about you, and I’m sick of holding you in the depth of my soul, being attached to my heart like glue. There’s no need to explain but you should’ve been honest and after that you could’ve walked away free, because you would’ve felt better being a man about it if you had only opened up to me.
Even though we don’t speak on a daily basis and communicate but once in awhile, your presence always bring me all the joys of life and that connection always get me through trials. There is something very special that is planted in you and I’m that water who will bring it to life, and my body has been kept and reserved for you, being ignited for that special night. Though my thoughts are always wondering when I’m thinking about you I’m just ready for you to see the light, and as I’m constantly praying to God on the behalf of you, hopefully then he would give you insight. Your spirit is so sweet that it calms the storm and you’re the one who I am thinking of, because I’ll give you everything and every part of me and that is what I would do for love.
I am always complimented for the way that I look and for the photos everybody embrace, but I’m becoming very tired when I’m constantly hearing about my body and my pretty face. I want to be noticed for my God given talent and how I never let it go down to waste, and I want to be noticed for the life that I’m living and the dreams that I am trying to chase. Would you think that I am pretty if I was sitting at home without my makeup and not looking my best? And would you think that I am pretty in the early mornings with my pajamas and my hair in a mess? Looks can be deceiving and not only that but it’s my heart that you are trying to win, and stop looking at the beauty on the outer appearance and search the beauty that is deep within.
Vicky E. Pittard
I shouldn’t have to teach what you already know or to correct every word that you say, and I shouldn’t have to tell you how to keep yourself up, knowing that this would only push me away. I shouldn’t have to show you how to spend your money nor should i tell you how you should invest, and I shouldn’t have to tell you how you need to prepare for every moment when you’re feeling distressed. I shouldn’t have to show you how to wine and dine me or to pick the perfect place to eat, and I shouldn’t have to show you how to keep me happy or to show you how to rub my feet. It’s just a matter of time when i will throw up my hands after doing everything that i can, because there’s only so much that I am willing to do except to teach you how to be a man.